Monday, July 29, 2013

A wave hello.

Hey folks!

How's it been going?  It's been a whirlwind of busy in my neck of the woods.  I recently moved to a cute little hidden home in central Austin, which has been a bit of an adjustment, only because I left all of my comforts that were in my 'hood but I am quickly finding that I am loving it here even if it's a bit Austin weird.  That is what I am here for, right?  I have had nothing but weird living situations since I moved here so why would I expect this to be any different? 

Welcome to my kitchen.  Something I didn't really have in my last house.  I am excited to build some pieces and re-purpose some others that I look forward to finding either by thrifting or dumpster diving!

I love the half tile, half wall decor in the kitchen.  It's very old and large and CUTE!  And check out my view and the size of that YARD!!  Par-tay!

I am currently running Fartsy Arts full time and have been trying to surround myself with colors, art, and inspiration.  So far it's working because I feel pretty confident about the level of production in preparation for the holidays this year.  Starting in July is something that I have always strived to do but never quite got there.  My Etsy shop is finally getting stocked with ALL new stuff.  WOAH. Right? So. Much. Excitement!

A lot of my time has been spent at TechShop here in Round Rock-Austin.  They have laser cutters. OMG drool.  It has allowed me to expand my business in ways I never believed was possible.  They have the DC's (Dream Consultants - WHAT!???) there to help at all times with any questions you have and a community of makers that serve as endless inspiration and brain storming sessions.  If you have a TechShop near you... GO. Join. DO IT!

In the upcoming weeks I will have a lot of new product releases.  I have a lot of ideas up my sleeve that I plan to start executing this week, so stay tuned!!

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Happy Monday and hope your week is filled with adventure!


Monday, July 15, 2013

Fartsy Arts is having a Giveaway!!!

Hi folks!!

Life has been a little nuts lately but full of excitement and adventures! I would love to re-cap the beginning of summer for you but I will have to wait until my move is over.  I am moving into a cute little house with a large backyard, vintage appliances, and those adorable features an old home has.  I can't wait to invite you into my new space in Austin, but for now, I would like to share what is going on RIGHT. THIS. MINUTE. (and until Thursday at midnight!)


You are all invited to participate!!! 

I am very excited to launch this new collection.  It has been on my mind for a while, and thanks to TechShop in Austin-Round Rock, I not have an awesome workplace to create all of the ideas rolling around in my head.

These earrings were first launched locally at The Mini Maker Faire at TechShop and then at The Big Crafty in Asheville, NC!  I have a staff of optometrists now sporting these at work at a local business in NC.  How cool!!!!

Good luck to you!! Don't forget to let me know your favorite color or a color you would like to see.  

These are also available with dainty Swarovski crystals - ohh la la.  

Check out my Etsy shop to have a peek. 


Monday, April 8, 2013

Clothing and Craft Supply Swap - Comin' atchya in a couple weeks!!

[poster designed by Casey Janowski - for hire ahem]

I told ya I was busy!!! I have been working with Austin Craft Riot and Remnants:fiber[culture] to throw this super fun event.  

Family friendly, super cheap, and an opportunity to de-stash some of the clutter around your house while getting creative with some crafty folks!

RSVP to the Facebook Event HERE
Check out the Austin Craft Riot Public Forum to see what others are bringing.

A fork in the road with a side of short cut. Choices.......

Hello friends!  It's been quite some time, hasn't it? 

Have you ever had a time in your life where you are down on your luck, you go to sleep all gloomy and sad, then the next day the universe surprises you with a ton of news, opportunities, and an insane amount of suspicion. 

A couple of weeks ago I had just that.  Luckily it was before April Fool's Day or I would have just blamed it on that and went about my day. 

It was a Tuesday and I had a full day of things to do. 

Over coffee I was given an opportunity to make my dream a reality.  BAM!
[Now comes the teaser part.  It's a super secret project that I can't reveal the details of JUST yet but I am hoping in the next few months, I will be able to share!!!]

I was offered a teaching gig.  BAM!
[I have been here a year and some odd months and have been trying my hardest to catch a break.  If you don't know, I am an art teacher (with a BLOG) and just couldn't catch a break. Well this day I did!]

Then I got offered a job to pretty much live on land and have a house built, have the run of a LARGE studio and community center, and pretty much live the organic farm life about 10 minutes from the city. BAM! BAM! BAM!

So, in one day I had three paths to travel down. 
1 - A young business entrepreneur with my better half and an awesome partner.
2 - A middle class teaching gig being a kooky art teacher.
3 - Make my dream of living on a commune making art all day a reality. 

Surreal.  I guess I have some choices ahead of me!

Now, I am back on track and getting ready to start a teaching gig and working on my super secret project.  My days go by much too fast but I would rather live this roller coaster life than sit around bored. 

Only boring people get bored.  Get to livin'!!!!

I hope all of you have been enjoying life!!! 


Monday, April 1, 2013

Happy Monday!

Good morning everyone!!

Happy April Fools Day!  

No tricks here, just a cute little fish to make you smile. 

Be careful out there... there are a lot of tricksters on the loose!!! 

Enjoy your day!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Austin Flea recap! March 23, 2013 - The Rattle Inn

If you have never been to an Austin Flea event, you are missing out!  Imagine some of the hippest vendors selling vintage, handmade, jewelry, clothing, etc. in one of the many Austin venues that blare the coolest music, sling the yummiest cocktails and drinks (mimosas included) on a beautiful Texas day. Don't worry, they happen every 6-8 weeks! You can get to the next one...

When you walk into an Austin Flea, chances are you will see these ladies faces.  You can pick up a cool screen printed bag with the bad ass logo for cheap and then carry all of your goodies that you scored!

Meet Kristin and Amanda being (kinda) photobombed by a tiny little Corina and a waving Brittany!

When you walk up, you see the street lined with vendors... this is a common thing in Austin.  One of the reasons I love this town.  The arts are alive like woah here.....

and don't forget the food trucks!!  This was my lunch.  YUM!  Vegetarian taco with queso and guacamole with smoked corn.  Choose your style: Tex or Mex!  Valentina's!!!!

A lot of the vendors used this event for some Spring Cleaning...time to get creative for 2013!

There is a good chance that Ashley of Inviting: A letterpress boutique will greet you when you enter a venue.  She is a regular vendor of the flea and is always showing off new and awesome products.  This event she was announcing her personalized Texas stationary! Now offered in her Etsy shop.  Check it out! Also an Austin Craft Riot member!

Below are just some of the goodies I got to stare at all day from Moontower Vintage!  Owned by Krystal and Jen!  Check out their Etsy and their Facebook page.  I got to walk away with a vintage scale - just the the one in the middle photo.  Woo! score!

I got to share the stage with Chase and Scout Design Studios! Check out these cool plates!! They also sell some fun jewelry and have a vintage shop.  I love having neighbors that I have never met before.

Austin Craft Riot members Tara of Lost Little Things (top) and Amy of Monster Dance Designs working their booths (and eating cookies!)
 Some other Austin Craft Riot members that were there: *annemarie*, LaLa, Jen Hearts Art by Lillian, Liz Potter Photography! There were so many great vendors and I regret not getting around to take more photos.  For a list of full vendors and links to their shops, visit!

Happy Sunday! Go do something fun!

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

AN UPDATE: Scott Wade - Dirty Car Art spotted!!

This morning over coffee I was feeling pretty motivated and a little daring so I sent out a few e-mails that I normally would shy away from.  None of which I regret at 11:30 at night so I am happy about that.  One that I am SUPER excited that I wrote, because I got a response from Scott Wade himself!!! 

To sum up my e-mail it went like this:

"OMG! Giddy, giddy, giddy! What a surprise!! OMG...freak out."

(well, not really, but it WAS enthusiastic with lots of exclamation points.)

I asked him 3 questions:

  1. Do you spot cars and create? or do you prep them? 
  2. Was this your truck or someone else's?
  3. Do you have a hidden camera inside to watch reactions? (because ours were probably pretty funny)

He took time out of his day to write me back and answered all of these!!  So, I thought I would share.

#2 - This truck was his friend's who lives in Texas.  It was done for Killeen's "Take 190 West" art festival that was on March 2nd.

#1 - He prepped the side window to do another one but the weather won and he only got the back done.

#1 - For events, (yes, you can hire him...DO IT and invite me, k?) he has a special method for preparing vehicles but claimed he still loves the "natural canvas" of a really dirty car.  (I LOVE THAT!!!)  He also confessed to drawing a silly face on a car at his work building because he couldn't resist.  (LOVE THAT TOOOO!)  He respects people's property and doesn't want to do too much on a car without permission but sometimes can't help it.  (Who wouldn't love to walk to their car and see something??)

I give you permission!!

and now....#3 - no camera but he did say he loved the idea!  (awesome! I think Sandi gets credit for the camera idea - def something she would think of..haha) He talked about a show with his ideas but I will keep those his secret and not ruin anything and keep my fingers crossed it happens.  It would be so fun to watch!

 I borrowed this image from a story because I like to see faces of people I read/write about. 

Kind e-mail, kind smile, awesome art, awesome day!

The Austin Flea is right around the corner!!

Become a Facebook fan and learn how you can get an extra discount at the event!

(Valid in person only - discount offered after updated inventory is listed online)


Sunday, March 17, 2013

Scott Wade - Dirty Car Art Spotting!!!

During my trip to Fort Worth we visited the modern art museum and when we pulled into the lot to park, THIS is what we saw!!!! 

Every once in a while, these e-mails get circulated with some amazing art made out of mud and dirt.  Artist Scott Wade creates these masterpieces and we saw an ORIGINAL Dirty Car Art!!!!!!

This piece was signed by Scott Wade and dated with a time of 3:45 PM.  Awesome. 

Look at the detail!!!!!!  This picture doesn't do it justice.  

We have no idea if this was HIS car or if he just finds dirty cars and draws on them.  I kind of like the mystery behind it.

The side of this truck had a window that looked like it was prepped for another one.

We even thought that maybe he had a camera inside to watch the reactions of people.  If that was the case, he would be entertained because we were totally excited to see this! 

Check out more of Scott Wade's work HERE!

The perfect surprise for an art day at the museum!!!!!

Friday, March 15, 2013

Hale House Vintage - A mini tour in Fort Worth, TX

This LARGE turquoise plane would catch your eye too, right?  Well, not only was it this huge plane that had me U-turn my car around in a city that in my opinion, is REALLY scary to drive in.  Maybe it has something to do with me being super protective of the newest car I have ever owned, or maybe it was the time I tried to switch lanes (with my blinker on) and had a horn honked at me for literally 10 seconds. 

I speak of Fort Worth, TX. 

A city otherwise full of hospitality and friendly folks.  Each place we ate at had amazing service with a smile and they were all curious where the ladies with the orange bags came from.  The National Art Education Association convention took place in Fort Worth this year.  A city filled with our large orange bags to snag all of the free swag from art supply vendors covered the town along with free cowboy hats from Michaels that were decorated with Texas glitz and glam.  With the colorful rhinestones decorating these hats, you could see the teachers from a mile away. 

The morning we found this awesome little shop we were on our way to find a cafe to finish up our last minute presentations.  Yes, even teachers are sometimes unprepared.  (sshhhhhh!!!) The night before we rolled in to our hotel late and unpacked the car and ding dong me left the interior light on so AAA got a silly phone call from me in the morning.  Ooopsie.  After the jump we had to drive around for an hr to charge it up again and came across Hale House Vintage. 

A cute and tiny little shop that jumps out at you. 

When you live in Texas, you see these beauties all over the place.  You can't help but stop to take a peek inside and then all of your gypsy blood starts boiling and you want to hop in and travel the US tucked in this cozy little slice of heaven.  Shiny.  SO shiny. (Also, not for

 Oh look what we found inside!!

One of my life goals is to own a sign like this. Not sure if I want it to say something snarky or simple.  I just LOVE these!!!!

Love this color.  Love the memories these chairs bring back.  Love the rust.

If you are in Fort Worth, stop by Hale House Vintage and say hi to Bekah Hale, the owner.  
She will greet you with a lovely smile and share some amazing spots to see in the city.

(you will see where we ended up in the next blog post)

The shop also carries a few little Fartsy Arts pieces!!  
I am proud to be a part of such an amazing store!

Hale House Vintage - WEBSITE
Hale House Vintage - FACEBOOK

 or visit them at

1800 Montgomery Street
Fort Worth, Texas 76107

Have a great day!!

Thursday, February 28, 2013

I feel the need to blog this morning/afternoon.  It's been a bit of a doozie. 

As I opened my coffee can this morning I was pretty disappointed to see that my coffee would not be it's usual black, but more of a muddy brown due to me only leaving about one scoop left and being too lazy to drag myself to the "super huge can't go in for just one thing" supermarket.  Caffeine is caffeine right?

My usual cup usually spins me into super mode but today I have no idea what happened?! 

I feel like the Hulk ready to throw things and smash my computer with my jumbo glass bottle of Topo Chico on my desk.  My internet keeps going in and out, none of the photos I have been editing for DAYS look good once uploaded on my website and I have cried 3 times since 10 AM.  (it's 2 now)

Ah, men.  You have no idea!!!!  I can't blame this on being a woman but there is something pumping through my veins this morning that make me feel like a crazy woman!  (and it's not caffeine)

I recently drafted a blog post about will power after hearing a fun little Podcast by Stuff You Should Know about how will power works. It was probably a bit crazier than this one so I will continue here.

Lately, I have had none.  I have been overloading myself with work, ideas, projects, etc., eating junk food like it's going to be ripped from my fingertips at a moments notice, eating chocolate like each little nugget has super healing powers and the more I eat, the better I will be, and just in general making some poor choices. 

Will power has not existed in my world lately.  I have been saying no to SOME things, which gives me a little boost at times.  It's empowering to say no.  It feels good to make a decision to put yourself first because sanity is important, right?  I wouldn't have a clue. I haven't felt sane in the last few weeks!!!

This morning's will power is about walking away.  In this specific instance, walking away from a project that is going no where, making me insanely crazy, causing tears of frustration, all for what?  Did I walk away from my computer?  No, I am still here.. I just shifted gears a little to vent to all of my (2) readers and will justify it by saying that I am adding a personal touch. 

Please don't be scared.

Will power made me eat those dark chocolate covered acai berries.  Acai is healthy! Dark chocolate is healthy! Done and done. 

I also created a new word today.   Virgonize!!!  It's my version of OCD where I try to organize every part of my life.  Sticky notes, writing down notes then organizing those notes, then making tabs, then making files on my computer with more files inside, and renaming things, and AHHHHHHHHHHHGGHH! It's endless!

Hi my name is Casey and I am a crazy Virgo. 

Today, I am walking away from my project and researching ways to ween myself off caffeine. 
Today, I will come home from the day job and do yoga to calm my soul.
Today, I will eat a healthy dinner that doesn't include the 3 C's:  Chocolate, Cheetos, or Cheer (aka Vodka)
Today, I will contribute to my gratitude jar.
Today, I will not regret blogging my craziness publicly on the internet and accept that today is simply a bad day.

Today, I will take care of me.

Today, take care of you!

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Happy Thursday!!!

It's amazing what a difference a good night can make!

I recently rearranged my room after the passing of my sweet Peanut.  I needed something fresh and different that wouldn't make me tear up every time I walked into my room. My awesome king size ROUND Austin Powers bed became a focus of my room and I started sleeping with my head facing East/West and have been sleeping HORRIBLY!!!  I know about Feng Shui and energies and while it did feel different, I only assumed because I had a different view of my room.  No biggie, right?


There have been many nightmares in the last week and weird dreams that include Jordan Knight of New Kids on the Block (maybe I am anticipating their concert in a few months....NERD), lots of dreams of being chased, weird foods, places, and a LOT of restless nights. 

Last night I decided that I cannot keep waking up exhausted so I changed directions (with a round bed, you can do that!)  My head faced North/South last night and I slept like a baby!!!!!!!!

Needless to say, this morning has been SUPER productive!!!  I am so happy because this weekend is a busy one!!

Coming up on Saturday is The Austin Flea!! 

I hope you have some free time this weekend to check out these events! Both are JAM PACKED with AMAZING vendors!  

I am going to need a day off on Monday.....whew.  Good think I now know I can get a good sleep again.


Thursday, January 31, 2013

A friend posted this on Facebook tonight and it really jumped out and clamped onto my little heart. 

I have always had big dreams.  I have always wanted to change the world somehow.  I feel my time here on Earth is more than just the ho hum daily grind that so many people give into when they open their eyes in the morning.  This pressure I put on myself in itself causes me a lot of daily anxiety.  Now, to add to that, try to imagine not just thinking about it but juggling what feels like a million different ideas, projects, business plans, and being your own PR firm, factory, etc. etc. etc., all while counting change to buy gas, eating whatever random things you have in your fridge, like wilted broccoli and canned coconut milk.  Oh wait, you already do this? Yea, I guess most people do.  It is 2013 after all.  Who knows what relaxation is? Or security?  Psh....

The early bird gets the worm.
You have to play hard ball to get what you want.

I am sure many of my crafter friends can relate to this.  We work our daily jobs then manage our small businesses behind the scenes into the wee hours of the morning so we can make a few extra bucks.  I envy my friends who have a day job then a small creative business on the side.  I wish that was good enough for me.

Well, that is not good enough for me.  I want to wake up and have a passion for what I do.  When I say that, I admit that I mostly mean what I do for "work" because in a perfect world, I would have an endless stream of money that would make all my dreams possible!

No, I do not mean the dream of sitting around and eating massive amounts of Ben and Jerry's Half Baked while sporting a size 2 and watching TV on the biggest flat screen money could buy... although that would be nice. I mean the dream of getting to do all of the things I want that would help my community.

I have plans people!!!

I feel like I am a bird with one damaged wing and all I do is fly in circles.  There are SO. MANY. IDEAS!!!! Good ones!!! Potentially REALLLLLY successful ones! Revisiting my anxiety, I watch the minutes pass by and every minute that passes is a minute lost.  Those minutes add up pretty fast and then all of a sudden you are curled up in a ball after clearing your desk with your forearm and giving up for the night like a 6 yr old who doesn't want to do spelling words (ahem, can you guess what my day job is?)  Throwing a tantrum, being ridiculously over dramatic, then starting fresh the next day, the only difference is that all of the notes you had on the desk are on the floor.  Everything is in shambles, and now you have wasted more time cleaning up the mess than if you just threw your hands up and went to bed for the night.  You don't do this?  Ah.... yes.  This is why I have started to meditate because this reflects MY behavior.

Little known fact:
  Last year I tried to launch my own summer camp.  I spent a ridonkculous amount of money on marketing, almost ALL of my free time planning, promoting, and designing this program.  I got my hopes up because of the feedback and response from my community.  My heart was racing and I thought.... THIS IS IT! Then, the registration deadline approached and there was nothing but a bunch of empty promises.

Do I blame anyone? No.  Am I sad? Yes.  Was I scared as hell?  YES.   Am I a wee bit relieved that it was kind of a fail?  YESSS.  Will I give up?  NO!

I don't know how you are but when I want something, I want it NOW! I am fully aware that I am a spoiled brat and have learned how to get what I want when I want it.  When that little magical part of me doesn't work, I freak out. BUT, I have also learned that because I have always been so used to getting what I want or things to work out the way I want them to......I tend to take on way too much and possibly not put ALL the effort into whatever project may be in the works...because poooof it's all going to work out, right? Wrong.

My last post talked about my sweet Peanut.  As I mourn, I find that it's easiest to just throw myself into my work and avoid accepting that I have any type of grief.   My computer will keep me company.  Google is my new friend.  But, even though I am getting motivated to tackle a ton of unfinished business, I am hitting those roadblocks again.  Time is starting to race past me again.  Even though I have a mini panic attack over these silly little things, the moment I saw this photo I became thankful that I have the guts to try.  I am not afraid to try and fail.  Some people live their lives with all of these amazing ideas trapped in their brain.  Imagine if everyone made a little more effort to make their dreams come true.

The world would be a happier place - or the therapists would be RICH!

What are some of your dreams? or what have to tried and succeeded at? Failed at?

Please share!!


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Tuesday morning - Theme: LOVE

This morning I woke with a pain in my heart and an emptiness that lingered in my room.  As I lay in bed, I tried to console my tears with happy thoughts, memories, and gratitude.

Yesterday, I had to make a very difficult decision to help free my sweet fur baby, Peanut, from pain caused by many health issues.

If you have a fur baby, you understand when I say that they become your children.  You live to protect them, you schedule your days around their feeding schedule and make sure to spend ample time with them because the thought of these little creatures feeling lonely breaks your heart.  They depend on you like an infant depends on parents.  You can't let them down.  Yesterday I had to put my selfishness aside and make the hardest decision that a pet parent could ever make. I am at peace knowing he is free from pain but I will forever miss him greeting me, tripping me (I think for his own amusement) keeping my toes warm by laying on them, feeling his nudges when he is begging for attention, and all the other little quirks that made him so special. 

This is Peanut.  My little child for 5 wonderful years.  I am grateful for all of the happy memories we have together.  Yesterday, I rifled through all of the photos and videos that I could find.  For some this would bring more sadness but for me it helped to see him so happy and reassured me that I gave him the best life I could.

When I look at him, I know the meaning of love.  I know what it feels like to be happy and smile at the littlest things at when I would find him sitting in front of his little heater with his eyes closed enjoying the warmth.  They remind us that life and happiness is all about the little things that we enjoy.

We spent his last 12 hours cuddling in bed.  I stayed up all night to make sure he was warm, felt secure and safe, and gave him more kisses in those 12 hrs than in all 5 years (probably not, but close) and talked to him like he was my best friend. I have a feeling that he understood all that I was saying as he gave me a reassuring nudge that it was OK for me to do what I needed to do for him.

Some of the things I loved about him:

I LOVED the way he smelled.  It was a sweet smell that I cannot explain but it was lovely.
I LOVED his little mohawk he had on top of his head.  It was silly but oh so soft.
I LOVED the way he would headbutt me when I stopped giving him kisses.  He was a bit spoiled.
I LOVED how he would place his little paw on my foot when I was sitting on the edge of my bed.  Sometimes I think he did it just so I knew he was there for me.
I LOVED coming in my room and seeing him propped up on the front of the vacuum cleaner, like he was waiting for it to pet him.
I LOVED how he would suddenly know he had to use the potty and take off only to fly into his littler box.
I LOVED his little food dance when I was feeding him.
I LOVED how his butt twitched when I gave him bananas.
I LOVED how he would FLY up the steps like a crazy man.
I LOVED his little sprawled legs when he relaxed.
I LOVED when he did his crazy flips.  SO CUTE!
I LOVED when he would bunny snore.

The list could go on forever.

I love that I got to spend 5 wonderful years with him.  I see a lot of Peanut paintings in my future.  It is also the perfect time to work on my Peanut tattoo idea.  I will forever be able to look at this sweet face whenever I want.

Here is one of my paintings I made a while back.  Just a little fun one.  Can't wait to make more.  I think it will be therapeutic and hopefully soon the pain that is left will pass.

Make sure you give your fur babies, human babies, and all people you love a hug today and let them know how happy they make you.

Love to you all!  <3

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Is anyone terribly behind on getting caught up after the holidays? 

I am.

Every second of the day I feel guilty but I am one of those people who cannot work unless the space around me is clean.  My need for organization is blamed on me being a Virgo instead of the fact that I may be a little OCD about organizing, labeling, and all things storage.  

I can't remember when this happened to me, but one day I woke up and loved to sort, loved to clean, and loved to put things away. Part of me feels that because of my gypsy blood that pumps through my veins, I have always been on the move so I tend to keep my life packed in boxes and almost ready to go at a moments notice.  Maybe my soul feels another move coming on?  Or.....maybe I am just procrastinating.  I think it's the latter.

I found this lovely picture from Hyperallergic and it couldn't be more correct.  Especially the last box.  

What do YOU do to get out of your funk?  What do you do to procrastinate?

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Hello January!

Every year I look forward to your arrival and this year was no different.

Anticipation hit at about 11:47 PM this year and I mildly regretted not having plans, again.

To quote my better half, he refers to NYE as "amateur night".  As we get older we realize that all of these false expectations lead to disappointment.  I tried to remember that as we lay side by side watching his iPhone countdown and as I struggled to get the ball drop streaming on mine....nerds, right?

Midnight hit, we texted each other silly messages (even though he was about 8 inches away from me), we giggled, we kissed, and then we went to bed.  I felt happy.  Nothing could top this.  No matter how much I wanted to be out socializing, I knew this was much better.

What does this have to do with what I am about to write?  It has to do with learning, accepting, and cherishing the moments instead of regretting and expecting.

I thought I would start off my first post of the year with an itsy bitsy look into me.  As the main author of this blog, I hope to bring more stories, more lessons learned (about life and about business) and inspirational stories. This time in my life is more important than other ones have been for some reason.

-Maybe because I am getting cozy with the idea of my new age decade.
-Maybe it's because I have been in my new town for a year and I feel like it's time to quit goofing off because a lot of my/our future depends on some choices that I make this year.
-Maybe it's because I am coming into my own more now than ever and I want to be happy with who I am.
-Maybe it's because I have decided that it just is for no particular reason.

Who am I and what can I bring to the table for your eyes to pass over?  Well, my emotions, my dreams, my inspiration, my energy are all bi polar.  It should be a roller coaster of posts and weird stories but my hope is that the ride is at least mildly entertaining and somewhat relatable.  Today is a bit of a confession and a look inside.  (Just so you know what you are getting into)


I have a small creative business that I try to manage in the midst of my insanity.  I struggle, I learn, I fail, I feel awful, then I wake up like it never happened.  

Some days I am manic with more ideas in my brain then there are minutes in the day.  I work, I create, I eat, I skip showers because that takes too much time.  Some days I have agoraphobia and I hide under the covers until the day passes and I feel calm enough to sleep. Today I write this blog and browse through the 13 tabs I have open on the top of my browser, all of which are silly, like an African Gray parrot riding a robot, or a job application that is way out of my league.  Hilarious! right?

I fear Saturdays because I have too much free time and don't know what to do with it.  So I pace, I sleep, I usually cry at least once (I know, freak!) and I wait for the day to be over.  Most of the time I am alone.  I used to love it and as I get older I love it less, but I still love it at times.  I am learning to embrace this weird quirk about me that I don't always understand and one that is possibly my greatest demon.

This morning I read a lovely post about 13 Rules for Being Alone and Being Happy About It.

I would like to highlight  a few of my favorites:

  • Understand that you’re good enough all by yourself. 
  • It’s very easy to find someone to spend time with, but when you have high standards for the people you allow into your life, you’re telling yourself that you’re better off by yourself than with someone who isn’t a great fit for you.

  • Cherish every interaction.

  • There is no such thing as a boring person. There is no such thing as a boring situation. If you’re ever bored, it’s because you’re not paying attention. This is a problem with you, not with your surroundings.
  • Take an interest in every person that comes into your life, even if for only a second. Listen closely to what they say. Watch carefully what they do. Try to understand them as a person. You’ll be better for it.
  • Create, create, create.
  • When you’re alone, the only one stopping you from creating the art, the work, that you’re capable of is yourself. All excuses are gone. When you’re alone, you can lose yourself in your work. When you lose yourself in your work, you can be sure that you’re creating something truly meaningful.
  • Your other option is to ignore that call to create and, instead, look for temporary comfort in things and people who will eventually leave you unfulfilled. Make use of your loneliness.
  • Go to a movie alone.

  • This will be awkward at first. If you’re used to going out with others, you’ll wonder what you should do with yourself while you’re alone. Don’t try to hide from the discomfort. Accept it. And then laugh about it because, really, who the hell decided that you weren’t supposed to do these things alone?

  • Make plans for the future, and pursue them immediately.

  • The purpose for your life doesn’t need to be complex or earth shattering. It doesn’t have to be big or overwhelming. It only needs to be present. Once it’s there, it gets much easier to make plans you can take action on.

Independence is one quality I cherish about myself. While I feel everyone should experience this high, it's lonely and crippling at times.  People see independence intimidating (this is not an assumption but a confession by people I have eventually spoke with.) Others exclude you because you can "deal."  After all, you are at home having a one person party just living it up, right?  Sometimes striving for success is my only friend.

My goal for 2013 is acceptance.  Accepting who I am.  Accepting struggles (and not always liking them.) Accepting that I want to be successful and other areas of my life won't always be as I hope. These are all my choices and even though I may whine that they suck.... they are still mine, I chose them, and I need to learn to live with them to be happy.

So I write today to you and to myself. 

I vow to cherish the time I spend with others because those moments are few and far between. 

I vow to attempt to quit making excuses and feel as if I am missing out on things and create, make plans, and go after them.

I vow to love myself and my whirlwind emotions.

I vow to write things down and share them: successes, failures, support for others, accomplishments (my own and others), and fun stories that I add to my Gratitude Jar.

My wish for 2013 is to be a better me, loving, honest, and real and remember those amazing simple moments like NYE and know that life if good.

What are your goals for this year?


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